Today the boys and I along with one of their friends are at the Lake of Ozarks. They are so independent now. It's almost strange. They can have fun w/o me. AS long as I feed them! I can't help but wonder what bringing a child half way around the world will think of us. My thought started with here at The Lake. How this place is such a part of who our family is. Will our new daughter(s) like to swim, know how to swim, enjoy fishing and lake water???
Then I began thinking of the entire process. How does a 3, 4 or 5 year old leave everything they know, good or bad and come into a family whom they have to immediately trust for safety, security and love? Not knowing our language, not knowing how to communicate their needs, how to tell me what they like for breakfast.
I wish I knew exactly where our new family will come from. At least I could start learning the language and their culture. But, it is more important for me to have two sisters than to choose what country they are from. So, for now I wait until this entire process really begins rolling. For goodness sake, we haven't even done our home study, and I am already wondering what our daughters will want to eat for breakfast and if they chew with their mouths closed.
I'm so glad that God is in control. Right now I am attracted to Bulgaria. I first wanted to go to China. So, we'll see. Bulgaria is small, and not as intimidating, or so it seems...